This is a shoot, brother.

This blog is intended not only to convey information about myself, but also to keep my writing and typing skills somewhat sharp.

I've been out of school for over half a year now, and to go from constantly typing papers and writing notes to doing neither is a radical change. Sometimes change is good, but I feel that I am losing something that I identified with.

I like to write, I like physically writing words out. It is my main mode of communicating my thoughts purely. That is why I don't talk much, it involves too much tinkering and formatting what I think is clear and sharp in my head, and dispensing them out as words. It takes too much time, and things usually get lost in the translation from cognitive to verbal. Making sounds with your mouth is harder to do. That is why I am not as quick witted as I think I could be.

With writing and typing, you don't worry about pitch modulation and shaping your mouth and moving your tongue. It takes less of an effort for me to get my thoughts out there the way that I visualize them.

Some may say that when you write you lose a lot too, and it is harder to convey things such as sarcasm, or that you are fucking around with your reader since everything can seem straightforward and truthful.

If there is one person you can't trust, it is a writer.

But everything I write here is a shoot, brother.

For those unfamiliar with the wrestling term "shoot", mainly because you think wrestling is fake, riddled with homosexual overtones, immature, or just plain dumb, I'll get the meaning out there.

A "shoot" in wrestling is something that is unexpected, unstaged and unchoreographed---something that is not in the script. You'd be breaking "kayfabe" or your character if you shoot.

You shoot, you battle nature, and you break down that precious fourth wall.

But the funny thing about "shoots" is that they can be "worked". It may seem that I am talking to you truthfully, as myself and not behind a persona, but I am still bullshitting you and putting up an act.

Some of the stuff I write in here from here on out can be either real or modified with bullshit---a "shoot" or "worked shoot". I think the fun is in having people figure out what is real. Then again, I risk the stigma of being labeled a liar. But I'm not worried about that.


You really can't trust a writer, but this is a shoot.

Brother.


On another note, here is a video.